Rusty sent me this from Lizard Bend Idaho. It is written by his oldest boy:
I lie to mummy because it pleases her.
I lie to mummy because she rewards me for my lies.
If I lie about a test result it pleases her to think that I am brighter than I really am and it pleases her to think that my test results are a reflection on her parenting and genes.
If mummy finds out I have been lying she tells me off but she never takes my reward away. Ergo (I'm doing Latin at school) I will be rewarded for lying and, if found out, not really punished in any way other than to be forced to lie and say I'll never do it again.
I'm being encouraged to lie about my lying.
Daddy lies to mummy because it pleases him.
For daddy lies are their own reward.
Daddy lies to me because he is a coward.
He is a coward scared of a seven year old boy.
Daddy is more likely scared of the seven year old boy he once was.
I'm reading Freud. (I'm not really. I lied).
I play the percentage game with my lies
I think I am winning.
But I'm not.
I just lie to myself and believe it whilst destroying all trust.
All trust in me and all trust in the people I lie about.
It is a bit like being God.
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